Friday, December 29, 2006

Americans want the goverment to make them thin

I don't know how much I agree with all this. For one thing, it's a VERY small sample, and how good are these samples?
A large majority of Americans say they support changes in public policy to stem the rising tide of obesity among adults....The new telephone survey of 1,139 adults found that 85 percent supported tax breaks for employers who made exercise space available to employees.
In addition, 73 percent said they'd support government incentives for companies that reduced the cost of health insurance for employees who had healthy lifestyles and shed extra pounds. Seventy-two percent said they would support government policies requiring insurance companies to cover obesity treatment and prevention programs.
In other words, charge fat people more. What about smokers? I guess they get a free ride. Notice the survey size: 1139 adults. Out of how many million? And what about someone like me who works out, eats little and doesn't "shed extra pounds"--I get penalized as a fatty? Who decides? Now I've got some jerk in HR who knows & tracks my weight? How is that any of his/her business?
As far as insurance goes, I'm willing to pay extra for a rider that will cover obesity treatment and surgery BY MY CHOICE. Will it cover prescription diet pills? Will it defray the cost of my gym membership? Pay for the "required" visits to dietitians and nutritionists? Or would the obesity insurance just COST more without providing more?
As long as smokers have to pay extra for cancer treatment. Fair's fair, right?

comment on a comment

Someone commented about how horrible it makes them feel to see that other people have lost weight without surgery, by old-fashioned diet and exercise.
I'm sorry that you feel that way. I find them inspirational. That makes me think, yes, it can be done, you don't have to resort to having your insides rearranged. I know many have taken the surgery route (and I've ventured down that path) but it's not for me.
No, I can't afford a personal trainer for a 4 hour per day workout. If I could, yeah, sure I'd be thin. I work with my trainer maybe once or twice a month and the rest of the time I'm on my own.
And it's very clear to me that for me, at least, it's all about exercise. I can starve myself and I don't lose a thing. I add in 5 minutes of exercise and I tone up and lose weight and inches very quickly. Problem is that I can't keep it up. It's not a question of motivation or being too tired physically, it's a question of being bored out of my skull with the workout.
I stopped the pool a few months ago. Next week, or the week after (still haven't heard from my trainer) I'm going back. The bowflex will be easier to manage in the summer in its proper room (it just doesn't FIT in the menagerie room)--I'll take a month or so off again then.
Nothing I post is supposed to make anyone feel discouraged or sad or upset (unless I'm sharing something personal and I'm looking for sympathy). It's fact, or it's funny, or I think it will inspire people.

obese preschoolers

I have a news alert which tells me when there's new articles that might interest me. This one came in late last night and I happened to be online at the time. Now I'm pretty fat and I take some responsibility for it (I still think there's greater things going on), but this is not these kids' fault. It's the parents.

Far too many kids are fat by preschool, and Hispanic youngsters are most at risk...
The study couldn't explain the disparity: White, black and Hispanic youngsters alike watched a lot of TV....But one important predictor of a pudgy preschooler was whether the child was still using a bottle at the stunning age of age 3 they are on track for a lifetime of health problems related to obesity....
AGE 3. At age 3, your mother is feeding you. You can't cook for yourself. You can't get into the car and drive to McDonald's. You can ask for food, yes, but it's up to your parents to put it in front of you. And a bottle at 3? Sheesh. Are they still in diapers too?
Thirty-two percent of the white and black tots were either overweight or obese, vs. 44 percent of the Hispanics.....Children were particularly at risk if their mothers were obese. So were those who still took a bottle to bed at age 3, as did 14 percent of the Hispanic youngsters, 6 percent of the whites and 4 percent of the blacks. That finding supports other research that one of the most common causes of overweight in children is overfeeding.
That's one for the "duh" file.
Pediatricians say even babies should never take a bottle to bed, and that children should start drinking from a cup around age 1.
So these kids are on a bottle for 2 years past when they are supposed to? That also ruins the shape of their mouths. Then again, I see toddlers sucking on their sippy cups like bottles so what's the difference?
I went grocery shopping with my mother as a child. I didn't eat in the cart. I didn't eat in the car. The only time we brought food in the car for snacking was when we were making a long trip (like for vacation). My friends have kids. These kids constantly have food. A half hour trip requires bags of cheddar goldfish, the sippy cup, pieces of cheese, grapes (which get thrown, not eaten), an assortment of toys AND a stop for lunch on the way home. When I'm grocery shopping, I see every kid is stuffing its face while sitting in the cart (and/or screaming for more food or some stupid junky toy). I want to go up to these parents and scream "look at me, do you want your kid to look like me in 35 years? Then stop fucking feeding him!"

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

body dysphoria

I've written about this before. But really, is anyone reading the 2 years of archives? Of course not.
I have no sense of my body. It's called dysphoria. Usually you hear about it in relation to those who feel male but have female bodies, or vice versa (gender dysphoria). I have body dysphoria.
One night a week or so ago, I was lying in the bed reading and for some reason I started to think about my body. I shut my eyes and tried to use the kinesthetic sense to feel where it was. (That's how you know, for instance, where your hand is when your eyes are closed. It's not related to the sense of touch.)
I concentrated really hard and came to the realization that I was floating an inch or so off the bed. Not that I was levitating--that's not what I'm saying. I'm saying that the parts of me I could FEEL and SENSE were not touching the bed. In other words, I can't feel my fat. I know it sounds stupid and it makes no sense. I know I'm fat. I can look down and SEE my fat. But if I close my eyes, I can't feel it as part of me. This is why I bump into things. I have no real idea about how much space I take up. How weird is that? I feel my muscles and my bones.
I've been trying to find an article about it, but all the article says that it's a sign of anorexia. Uh, can't be, if I have it and I'm the size of a small country.
Here's an abstract which seems to connect body dysphoria and depression, but I can't access the whole article:
Body Image Disturbance, Memory Bias, and Body Dysphoria: Effects of Negative Mood Induction
This study examined the effects of negative mood induction on body image and recall bias for fatness stimuli in women of normal weight with high body dysphoria. The experimental design contrasted subjects scoring high and low on a measure of body dysphoria. One half of the subjects in each group were administered a negative mood induction procedure. Dependent variables were a) body size estimation measures, b) body dysphoria, and c) recall for fatness, thinness, and depressive words. The negative mood induction resulted in increased current body size estimation and body dysphoria. A free recall bias for fatness stimuli was found in subjects high in body dysphoria. Thus, current body size estimation and body dysphoria were found to be reactive to negative mood states, whereas, ideal body size and recall for fatness stimuli were not affected by the negative mood state.
I'd like to read it. Oh well.
All the papers seem to be very scholarly, pdfs, not easily accessible.


I'm going back on phentermine. It's been 7 months, hopefully it will work again.
My great idea was to get 1 month which was 60x15 mg capsules which I could use in the beginning so I wouldn't be so overwhelmed (they really are strong) and at the end for weaning, and then 2 months of 30x30 for in the middle.
Well, the pharmacy said the 15's have pretty much gone bye-bye and that they are phasing out the 30's and in fact, the 30's and the 37.5's are the same price. So I'm going to have to get a stronger prescription. Which I didn't want. But the 37.5's are tablets, not capsules, so I can break them in half. I have a pill splitter which I bought when one of my pets was sick and taking 1/2 a pill 2x a day for life. (What happened to him? He died. One of my many babies who went to heaven this year.) :(
My husband is switching jobs in 2 weeks and we're losing our insurance. Not that I care for the phentermine, since insurance doesn't pay (and it's not on Walmart's $4 plan, damn it), but I hope I don't break another bone or something until he can pick up insurance at the new place.
Next week I'm going back to the pool too, as soon as my personal trainer gets back from vacation. In fact, she called me last week and I couldn't talk. I called her right back and she didn't answer and I haven't heard from her since, so I guess she left the state in the meantime.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

"Skinny is the new Fat"

A friend of mine gives me magazines once in a while, but they are always pretty old. Still sometimes it's interesting to look at predictions for things that already happened. I read them anyway.
She gave me recently the October 30, 2006 Newsweek which contained a short article on page 55 called "Skinny is the new Fat" (see scan).
I was astonished to find the galleries are still online at the Newsweek site.
First, the paper article."Banana Republic began offering its "00" duds on its Web site in the spring....The less-than-zeros arrived as Americans are getting bigger. The average woman is 155 lbs and 5'4". That's 20 lbs heavier than the average woman of 40 years ago. But don't assume today's woman is wearing a bigger size than her mother. ..according to standard size measurements (there are STANDARDS? Who knew?) that average 155 lb woman should be wearing a size 16 but thanks to vanity sizing she's probably buying a 10 or 12"
Sizing is so screwed up. I have pants that fit me, at over 300 lbs, that are size 14/16. I know that's total bullshit.
Now for the online stuff. I't's two photo slideshows, with some pretty catty comments. One is on thin celebrities, who look wonderful (for the most part) next to the other slide show on models. A couple of the slides mention that the "corpse look" is in. Like heroin-chic wasn't bad enough.
One slide did mention that one designer's very small clothes were for Asian women. Okay, that I can see. They are little, shorter, smaller boned than Westerners, and it makes sense they'd wear a smaller size. But a woman who's 5'9? No.
One of the slides showed Vivian Leigh as Scarlett O'Hara, with her 17" waist. I'm not sure where my (tattered and old) copy of Gone with the Wind is, but I know that Scarlett's 17" waist came from her corset. After she had a baby she couldn't get laced to below 19" and she bemoaned being a "cow".

man loses 125 lbs to get a job/wife & biggest loser

This is so great. I love these kinds of stories.
Michael Warren had a lot (to) lose. The 20-year-old Wintersville resident who once tipped the scales at more than 300 pounds lost 125 pounds in 18 months to pursue a career in law enforcement. He was sworn in as a deputy sheriff in Ohio County on Monday, two days after he married his high-school sweetheart of six and a half years.....Before embarking on his journey to better fitness, Warren said, he couldn't do one push up and didn't have the endurance to run very far. Now he can do 30 push-ups and runs nearly every day, managing to clock 1.5 miles in under 16 minutes.....Warren said he is in a job surrounded by people who are committed to fitness. There's no way he would ever slip back to the days when he ate just "to pass time," he said.
The photo of him comes from

You all were probably wondering why I never mention the reality TV show "the biggest loser" before. That's simple; I don't watch network TV (except once in a while The Simpsons, Mad TV and SNL) and I don't watch reality shows.
My mom said she saw an interview with the winner. Now realize this is about 4th hand info, as I haven't seen this interview or ever watched the show or devoted more than a minute's thought to it (a friend of an acquaintance was on it a few years ago, that's the extent of my knowledge). She said this guy lost over 100 lbs in about the same amount of time you'd lose it with surgery, and had no sagging skin. I screen-captured these photos of him from the NBC site, and he does look pretty damn good.
If you notice, deputy WeightLoss above also didn't appear to have a huge sagging belly thing (panniculus) going on.
Why does WLS produce this, and regular dieting/exercising doesn't? I mean, you're supposed to exercise after you have the surgery, and it's basically like a diet. Has anyone ever heard or read why this is? Any help?

Happy Holidays & good news on chocolate!

Hope everyone had a merry-happy-joyful whatever they celebrate and no one gained any weight. Because holiday food has no calories, right? Like birthday cake.
Just in case you ate too much chocolate (I ate fudge, and chocolate cake, and chocolate cupcakes with chocolate frosting, and 2 Twix bars--over several days, not all at once!)'s now GOOD FOR YOU.
Listen to the way people malign chocolate: Sinful! Decadent! To die for! There's even that popular restaurant dessert known as "Death by Chocolate." But is this any way to talk about a loved one -- especially during the season of comfort and joy?
Bite your tongue! Evidence is mounting that some kinds of chocolate are actually good for you. Here's the latest about the healthy side of your chocolate habit and taste-tested advice on what to try. Merry munching.
Scientists at the Harvard University School of Public Health recently examined 136 studies on coco -- the foundation for chocolate -- and found it does seem to boost heart health...heart benefits from increased blood flow, less platelet stickiness and clotting, and improved bad cholesterol...These benefits are the result of cocoa's antioxidant chemicals known as flavonoids, which seem to prevent both cell damage and inflammation.
Maybe that's why my cholesterol level is so good! I eat chocolate all the time in the form of Slim-fast!
(H)ypertensive people who ate 3.5 ounces of dark chocolate per day for two weeks saw their blood pressure drop significantly...People who ate the same amount of white chocolate? Nothing. (It doesn't have any cocoa -- or flavonoids.) ....Just a bite may do you good.
And my blood pressure is absolutely fine in spite of my largeness. My heart rate--eww, high, not so good. Pressure? Just fine.
Chocolate milk may help you recover after a hard workout....cyclists who drank chocolate milk between workouts scored better on fatigue and endurance tests than those who had some sports drinks.
I like chocolate milk, but after a workout I want water. Sorry.
(R)esearchers gave 24 women a half-cup of special extra-flavonoid-enriched cocoa every day. After three months, the women's skin was moister, smoother, and less scaly and red when exposed to ultraviolet light. The researchers think the flavonoids, which absorb UV light, help protect and increase blood flow to the skin, improving its appearance.
And I have beautiful skin. I am walking proof of this article.
(P)reliminary research...suggests chocolate may boost your memory, attention span, reaction time, and problem-solving skills by increasing blood flow to the brain.
I am very smart, but I'm not sure chocolate has anything to do with it. Then again, I ate it as a child too.
(I)n a survey of 143 women...those who ate chocolate every day seemed to have more sex drive, better lubrication, and an easier time reaching orgasm. (However)the women who ate chocolate were all younger than the ones who didn't; it was age and not chocolate that made the difference.
Who needs sex when you have chocolate?
BTW, I'm not sure how many pagans read this...have any of you ever done the Chocolate Ritual? It's pretty funny even to read.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

gut bacteria makes you fat

I wonder if this is related to the "a virus makes you fat" theory?
Scientists link weight to gut bacteria
Maybe it's germs that are making you fat.
Researchers found a strong connection between obesity and the levels of certain types of bacteria in the gut. That could mean that someday there will be novel new ways of treating obesity that go beyond the standard advice of diet and exercise.
Beyond diet and exercise. Imagine that. You mean all fat people aren't lazy gluttons? Not possible.
Obese humans and mice had a lower percentage of a family of bacteria called Bacteroidetes and more of a type of bacteria called Firmicutes, Gordon and his colleagues found. The researchers aren't sure if more Firmicutes makes you fat or if people who are obese grow more of that type of bacteria....
"We are getting more and more evidence to show that obesity isn't what we thought it used to be," said Nikhil Dhurandhar, a professor of infection and obesity at Louisiana State University's Pennington Biomedical Research Center. "It isn't just (that) you're eating too much and you're lazy."
Ah, didn't I just say that?
(T)he field of "infectobesity" looks at obesity with multiple causes, including viruses and microbes. In another decade or so, the different causes of obesity could have different treatments. The current regimen of diet and exercise "is like treating all fevers with one aspirin."
We don't even treat all headaches with one type of aspirin.
And this is where it gets really amazing:
(T)he stud(y) looked at what happened in mice with changes in bacteria level. When lean mice with no germs in their guts had larger ratios of Firmicutes transplanted, they got "twice as fat" and took in more calories from the same amount of food than mice with the more normal bacteria ratio....It was as if one group got far more calories from the same bowl of Cheerios than the other.
Amazing. And how can food's calorie content CHANGE?! This upsets every calorie-based applecart.
In a study of dozen dieting people, the results also were dramatic. Before dieting, about 3 percent of the gut bacteria in the obese participants was Bacteroidetes. But after dieting, the now normal-sized people had much higher levels of Bacteroidetes — close to 15 percent.
And does it every go away? Does it go back down? Or is everyone doomed to yo-you diet forever because of some freaking bacteria? Can't I take a broad-spectrum antibiotic and then eat some yogurt to restore the good bacteria?
Link to streaming video of the project.
Does this make me feel vindicated? Does this prove I don't eat lot and remain fat anyway?

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

doctors say ads cause anoxeria and drinking in children

File this under "duh." In fact, I have labels now and I will file it under that.
Inappropriate advertising contributes to many kids' ills, from obesity to anorexia, to drinking booze and having sex too soon, and Congress should crack down on it, the American Academy of Pediatrics says.
Okay, I agree about too many ads, but why can't parents just shut off the TV?
"Young people view more than 40,000 ads per year on television alone and increasingly are being exposed to advertising on the Internet, in magazines, and in schools," the policy says.
I don't remember ever seeing an ad in school. Then again, we didn't have brand-name vending machines and food either (much less soda)--way back in the olden days.
The statement also is critical of alcohol ads that feature cartoonish animal characters; fast-food ads on educational TV shown in schools; magazine ads with stick-thin models and toy and other product "tie-ins" between popular movie characters and fast-food restaurants.
These pervasive ads influence kids to demand poor food choices, and to think drinking is cool, sex is a recreational activity and anorexia is fashionable, the academy says.

It's very true. I have a very health conscious friend who brings his kids to McDonald's and Burger King for the stupid toys. I explained to him that he can just buy the toy without the food, and I think he would have kissed me if we weren't talking on the phone. He does limit his kids' TV time, but they see it when they go to other kids' houses to play. I guess there is no escaping it.
• ban junk-food ads during shows geared toward young children
Like that's every going to happen. What will be advertised on those shows? Oh, that's right, toys that don't do what the commercials show.
• limit commercial advertising to no more than 6 minutes per hour, a decrease of 50 percent
Not going to happen. They'd have to double the price of advertising to make up the money. I've worked in media advertising and I know this will NEVER happen. They've been pushing for MORE commercials. A 30 minute show in reality is 20-22 minutes long. A two-hour movie is really only an hour and a half at most.
• restrict alcohol ads to showing only the product, not cartoon characters or attractive young women;
Then how will they get MEN to buy it?
• prohibit interactive advertising to children on digital TV.
That could work, since it hasn't happened yet. I had digital TV and it wasn't hooked into my internet connection.
The academy also says TV ads for erectile dysfunction drugs should be shown only after 10 p.m.
I agree. I hate those ads. Can they make them stop coming to my email box too?
Oh, that's something they DIDN'T address. The contents of spam coming to a child's inbox. I get the most putrid disgusting porn spam at work, at unpublished addresses which are blocked by Javascript when they appear on our web site (which most of them do not do!). I know kids must get this same stuff. Who regulates that?

Friday, December 08, 2006

fat people are destroying America

I had some fun last night on Yahoo answers and came across an answer by a woman who said she wrote a rebuttal to a story about fat people ruining America.
You KNOW I had to go and look.
Here is the original story she rebutted. The poetic title is "Obesity in America: The Awful Truth: Fat People Are Destroying America By Jill Elaine Hughes"
There's a convenient email link to Ms Hughes there. Let's use it, shall we?
With massive hyperbole, she exclaims:
Fat people are destroying America. Look, I know that statement is not exactly politically correct. But it's the truth. The obesity epidemic is the single most important political, socioeconomic, and human welfare issue facing this country today. I'll even go so far to say it's a threat to our national security.
Yeah, because all of us fatties are really terrorists with bombs strapped to our bodies under fat suits. Or is it because we are too fat to chase the skinny Mexicans coming across the border? You know all those damn Mexicans are really Arabs in disguise.
And just as the fat, self-absorbed, orgy-loving Roman emperors brought about the fall of Rome via their sheer, gristle-coated incompetence, America's inability to crush the growing obesity epidemic may very well strike the lethal blow to a century of American world dominance.
Huh? It's got nothing to do with outsourcing to countries who pay their workers less, to countries that give huge tax breaks to outsourcing American corporations, nothing to do with the fact that Asia makes better and cheaper electronics than America (and better cars too, and more environmentally safe ones). No, it's all about our waist size.
Compared with the Brits, Americans showed significantly higher rates of diabetes, high blood pressure, heart disease, and cancer - -all conditions that are directly traceable to obesity.
My father, who is terminally ill with several diseases, has something wrong with his heart, and he's 5'9" and weighs 143. That obesity, man, it's a heart killer. And one of my life-long friends is dying of ovarian cancer. She's always been skinny as a rail. My boss at a previous job died of cancer. He was thin. My best friend's dad died of cancer. Thin. My aunt died of cancer. Thin to the point of being bony.
The article talks about health care costs and illness rates in Canada and Great Britain vs the US. There's a huge problem with comparing them to us. They have socialized medicine. We don't. Their rates are set in stone by the government. Ours aren't. Everyone can get treated for a disease before it gets chronic. Many people in the US don't have health insurance or their health insurance doesn't cover everything. So there is really not a true comparison there.
Any competent physician can tell you that being overweight - - let alone clinically obese - - is bad, bad bad. Overweight and obesity are directly linked to any number of costly chronic conditions..... And caring for these chronic medical conditions - -all mostly preventable through proper diet and exercise - -is costly.
I just know this smug bitch has a naturally high metabolism and just doesn't GET it. Losing 200 lbs is NOTHING like losing 20.
Here's her national security threat:
Type II diabetes is getting to be such a public health problem in major cities that many American hospitals won't be able to handle a major medical disaster - -such as a bioterror attack or a bird-flu pandemic - -because their beds are full and their resources stretched to the limit by the treatment needs of obese Type II diabetics.
Funny, the hospitals around here aren't full. Wonder what cities she's talking about?
And skyrocketing health care costs are making it more and more difficult for American companies to compete in a global marketplace in which almost every other major industrialized nation has a universal, government-supported healthcare system.
Didn't I just say that? How is it fat people's fault that the US doesn't have socialized medicine?
She goes on in the same vein, not realizing she is actually stumping for public health care, not for reduction of obesity.
If healthcare costs continue to rise at current rates, Medicare will be bankrupt in 10 years, Corporate America will be put out of business by foreign competition, and nobody but the richest of the rich will be able to afford health insurance.
Who, or what, is to blame for all this? Obesity, obesity, obesity.
HUH!? We have no healthcare system and that's the fault of those who are ill. If she was writing about cancer, do you think it would have this same attack stance? (Of course, because cancer is caused by being overweight. Sheesh, how dumb of me to have forgotten. Next time my skinny dying friend calls me I'll be sure to point that out to her.)
And here come the stereotypes.
If you are still reading this and like 66% of Americans, have a weight problem, I'm sure you've started throwing rotten tomatoes at me by now. But it's time to wake up and smell it, people. Sure, we've all heard the doctors' advice - - "eat less, move more" - - but as the grim statistics show, nobody is paying attention. Stuff your face full of McDonald's for breakfast and lunch, drive for two hours to and from work, then veg out in front of the TV at night while stuffing your face full of Pizza Hut or Chili's To Go - - does this sound familiar to you? Probably. After all, it's our pathetic American lifestyle.
I don't eat fast food for breakfast, and only once a week for lunch. I eat slim-fast. I drive 15 minutes to work. If the TV is on, it's in the background because I am doing a job from home. I work out. But of course I must be lying, right? Because if I was REALLY eating less and moving more, I'd be thin. Just like that. (imagine a finger snap)
Indeed, it's now politically correct to call obesity a "disability", instead of a self-inflicted state that is completely preventable. Once upon a time, obese children and adults were shunned by society, called gluttons, sent to "fat camps" and subjected to Richard Simmons videos until they, at long last, either lost the weight or died of their self-inflicted, obesity-related complications.
I wonder if she attacks smokers? I wonder if she's ever met an overweight person who CHOSE to become overweight and LIKES it? I like myself...I don't like my body. There's a difference. And this woman obviously doesn't know what compassion is.
I think maybe she would have made a good Nazi. Put the fat people into camps until they die! They are 2nd class citizens destroying America! Be thin or die! Into the camps with you, foul scum!
She claims that doctors are being sued for telling kids they are overweight. I know I've talked about not calling kids "fat" to save their feelings (and I don't agree, no one ever shied from calling me a fatso) so this might be the only place I come a tiny bit close to agreeing with her.
Her rant continues:
Even more disturbing, buying into this hypersensitive "fat is OK" attitude...more than ever before. Hospitals are buying super-sized gurneys, wheelchairs, and beds. Movie theatres are adding extra-wide seats. Plus-sized now selling better than regular sizes.
Of course it is, there are more fat people now. Duh. How is this saying "fat is okay"? Would she rather have fat people running around wrapped in king-sized bed sheets because making clothing that fits is supporting the overweight life-style?
Television shows and movies feature more fat characters.
Because if they want to depict real life, they have to show the 2/3 of America that is overweight. I wonder how she feels about black people, Latinos and Asians being on TV? Probably pretty offended. They aren't Americans after all.
Restaurant chains and soft-drink companies are resisting any attempt to regulate or tax them for their poisonous food and beverages in the name of "consumer freedom."
And she's never eaten fast food or drunk soda? I doubt it.
Coffin companies are even creating special "super-sized" product lines to accommodate the super-obese when their bodies finally give out under the pressure.
Better to bury people in empty piano boxes, like they used to? Of course, way back when, every coffin was tailor made to the dead person's measurements, as a final act of respect. Not picked out of a catalog.
Who is responsible for changing obesity from a once-shunned social stigma (and rightly so) to a celebrated, glorified state of normalcy? Fat people, again. The very same ones who are destroying America.
I must have missed obesity being "celebrated and glorified". What channel was that on again?
Her grand finale?
(B)eing fat - -let alone morbidly obese - -should be as socially unacceptable in America as lighting up in public or allowing an infant to ride in a car without a car seat.
Go head, read the entire article for yourself. I dare you.

Merry Christmas!

I dressed my avatar up for Christmas. Here she is (or here I am):
If you see it live on a Yahoo site, the Christmas lights are blinking and Santa's sleigh (the black blob) is flying around the room.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

bigger portion sizes=bigger people sizes

I know portion size is a problem. I personally am confused by it. The "suggested" portions seem so small...even my skinniest friends eat way more than 1 "serving" of everything. At the same time, everyone's getting fatter...obviously there's a correlation.
But a lifetime of training that x is a portion size is hard to overcome. Restaurants, for instance, usually serve two or more portions for everything on the plate. But recently when Wendy's down-sized their portions, it pissed me off. Well, not that they were serving less food...but that they didn't change the price, and that's WRONG. The standard meal is now "small" and it used to be "medium" and it costs the same. I don't know if that's because of the price increases of EVERYTHING due to rising fuel costs, or a calculated move into the healthy food arena. (Wendy's does also offer a good selection of alternatives to value meals sides, and various drinks that aren't soda, but still no plain bottled water.)
This article talks about this issue:
Along with the American waistline, the American plate and portion size have grown too. A study at Rutgers University supports earlier research that people today eat bigger servings than they did 20 years ago.
...People aren't realizing how much they are eating....The larger portion size they're eating — even if it's a healthy food — is still more calories....
Both studies asked students to take food portions of various items. Diners were offered three sizes of plates, bowls and cups in a buffet-like setting. ...In a comparison of breakfast servings, the students in 2003 took 20 percent more cornflakes than students took in 1984.... Ditto for milk.
The glass of orange juice grew by more than 40 percent compared to 20 years ago. That translates into 50 additional calories, or a weight gain of five pounds over the course of a year, if consumed on a daily basis. Is this 5 lbs a year just from extra OJ!? What about all the other extra calories from the 20-40% increases? No wonder we are all so fat.
Dinner and lunch servings grew, too — 50 percent more fruit salad wound up on the plates.

People are eating with their eyes and not their stomachs....They're not listening to their bodies to tell them when to put the fork down.
It takes 20 minutes for that signal to get from the belly to the brain. In 20 minutes, a person can eat a lot of food.
(T)he original Penn State study (came about because researchers) couldn't get accurate self-reported data on how much food people ate because they wrongly estimated portions. (Could) diners ...visualize portion size?
Most people still lack that skill, but the portion size is getting larger...
The frame of reference for the serving size is increasing. They still don't have an ability to translate to amounts that are easily quantifiable if you ask people how much they've eaten.
Other studies have shown that people eat more when they are served more. (L)arger portions at restaurants and larger plate size and packaging all play a role.
...(P)ortion size is only one factor feeding the national problem of obesity.
However, people may not realize that they are eating more when they take larger plates and bowls.
Plate size, bowl size, cup size are very deceptive...(Diners) can't estimate the amount of food in a dish and it makes it even more difficult when the dish is deeper or bigger.
A 1994 informal survey found that the standard plate size in the restaurant industry grew in the early 1990s, from 10 inches to 12.
That holds 25 percent more food...That really makes a difference in how much our plates can hold and how much we eat from them.
(An) obesity expert...said the idea of "value pricing" in fast food restaurants, which sells much larger portions for a minor cost increase, has also changed perceptions at home.

This isn't a victim post. I'm not blaming the restaurant industry for my weight, or the people who decide what size a plate should be. Somewhere along the line, I got used to eating a certain amount of food. When too much food was put on my plate, I should have kept saying "no" and asking for a box to take the rest home (which I actually do most of the time I go out to eat, and I bet I'm STILL getting more than a serving of everything).
But just being AWARE of the issue helps.
And there is an old dieter's trick of using very small plates for everything so it looks like you're eating more food. I guess that's grounded in science, huh?
When I was a teenager in the 80's I worked at McDonald's. (Which is why I eat at Burger King now!). We sold OJ in small sealed containers. I'm thinking they were maybe 6-8 oz. Not very much, in today's eyes, and hardly anyone bought two. After I started working there, McDonald's got rid of the small sealed OJs and put in a machine, like a soda machine, which mixed concentrate with water and now McD's could offer several sizes of OJ. And people opted for the larger one. I don't eat breakfast at fast food places (unless I'm constipated--there's nothing like a hash brown to get your bowels moving immediately) so I don't know what they offer for OJ now. But once in a while I do eat breakfast at a Friendly's when I'm on vacation. And they offer huge glasses of OJ, like the size you'd get a soda (no free refills, though). At least 2 times those old fashioned sealed McD's cups of OJ.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

healthy and pudgy--it can happen

Although I am grossly morbidly overweight, I have normal blood pressure, normal cholesterol, normal blood sugar. I have a slightly elevated heart rate, that's all. I'm disgustingly healthy for my size. So obviously I must be lying about that, as well as about my eating habits, right?
Well, believe what you will, but here's a new article about being healthy AND fat:
Obese women can improve their health without dieting by changing their eating habits and exercising more, researchers said. ...
They showed that lifestyle changes including exercise programs such as tai chi, aqua aerobics and circuit training, coupled with behavior modification, can improve health risks in obese women even if they do not lose significant amounts of weight.
... Although the average weight loss was small, ... after a year on the program, the women showed improvements in their self image, were fitter and less stressed.
"Psychological and physical health improved independent of substantial weight loss," said Borkoles, adding that weight is a poor predictor of health.
There were also improvements in blood pressure, cholesterol levels and heart rates in the participants in the study.
The women... were encouraged not to diet but were taught about healthy eating, how to read food labels and prepare nutritious meals. They also had to do four hours of exercise a week and were given social support.
This isn't much different from what I've been doing on my own.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Trans fat banned

NYC has taken the controversial step of banning trans-fat in all restaurants. (see Yahoo! news article) Supposedly this is because trans fats are bad for your heart. (I'm not saying they are or they aren't, just that heart-health is supposedly the motive behind this ban.)
It seems strange to me that it was NYC who started this. Seems like some city in California would have. After all, how many products are known to cause cancer in California? I guess they don't cause cancer in Nebraska or Canada. (The wording of that has always bothered me--it doesn't say what they mean.)
Related news, many fast food restaurants have voluntarily stopped using trans fats. (Article)
Arby's, Taco Bell, KFC and Wendy's have all switched or are switching.
The fats are believed to be unhealthy because they do double damage by raising bad cholesterol and lowering good cholesterol. Research shows that eating 5 grams a day can raise the risk of heart disease by 25 percent. ... While many health and medical associations have applauded New York City's move to ban trans fats, the American Heart Association has warned that moving too fast might cause restaurants to revert to unhealthy replacements such as palm oil, which is high in saturated fat.
The point is, fat is fat. Are they going to ban all fatty foods next? This almost seems like a Big Brother move to me. Like having a camera aimed at me at all times "for my safety." Like having elderly white people practically disrobe at the airport because they might be terrorists. (I swear I'm on some list. Every time I fly, my luggage is searched. Every time. They leave you a little note telling you they did it. Aren't they nice?)

Thursday, November 30, 2006


Dan--It absolutely is a form of OCD that I have. It is totally a control issue. The thought of eating random food is terrifying to me. It sounds so stupid, I know, and believe me I've tried to work through it with 2 therapists from 2 different directions and there it is, still in my face.
But at the same time, I still don't eat A LOT of food. It's very frustrating. I'm intelligent and I can see that it's stupid to have a panic attack over eating strange food, it's completely illogical and irrational. I have even thought about trying some anti-anxiety drugs (not that I feel particularly anxious except about food) but those have the lovely side effect of weight gain.
I have occasionally gone in the other direction of not eating. Yes, I lose weight, but I get really sick from lack of nutrients. And I can't do it "on purpose" (I wish I could)--every once in a while I just go a day or so with little/no food, without planning to do so. In fact, as I've said before, food and eating are such a pain in the ass for me I wish I could give up eating entirely. (Just as unhealthy a thought, I guess).
And there absolutely is a difference between me (or anyone with any kind of OCD/eating disorder) and someone who starves themselves just to keep their job--because someone told them to be skinnier or they'd get no work. I guess I can admire their will power, but not the message they send to society. If that makes me a hypocrite, oh well. Nobody's perfect, I'm not perfect, and I know I take on different roles for different people.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

My eating disorder

This post has been in my head for a while. It's just coincidence that it's knocking against these posts about skinny models.
A few weeks ago someone told me about a 10 day metaphysical learning retreat. I really wanted to go...except for the food issue. I would be required to stay at the retreat center and not allowed to go off-site for food or anything. I wrote to the coordinator and said "I have an eating disorder and I require total control of my food." I wanted to know what was going to be served for the meals. What options there were for eating.
She wrote back and asked me what my eating disorder was, and as I was struggling to describe it (I'm not anorexic or bulimic or a binge eater), I realized I had hit the nail on the head with my first email. "I require total control of my food."
I started paying attention and I found that I eat very few things unaltered. Peanut butter is one, crackers are another, as is some kinds of fruit. Everything else I have to customize. I can't order off a menu without substituting or changing something. I change EVERYTHING.
It is a big step for me to admit that it's gone beyond picky and into something that's really a problem.
I'm not going on the retreat. I can't bring my own food and I can't leave.
This isn't the first time this has happened to me. I've gone on other 2 or 3 or 4 day retreats and classes and been sick, literally sick from not eating, or eating only what I could hide in my car. And I hate hiding food. Hiding food is a disease in itself (which I usually don't manifest).
Unfortunately I am just about to lose my medical insurance for six months so I can't even start therapy again.

eating habits of fashion models

Someone posted a comment saying I was being unfair to fashion models by saying they starve themselves and take drugs, that they are naturally thin and can't gain weight.
Of course, that person provided no back-up for this.
So I looked it up.
The first article, on a designer's site, says (in part, it's very long):
In the twenties, the typical ‘Miss America’ contestant was 1.60 metres tall and weighed 63 kilos. By 1990, she was 16 cm taller – but had lost 10 kilos. A glance at the home page of a model agency reveals that today she is not much taller – but her weight keeps going down. A typical fashion model is just under 1.80 metres, wears size 7 shoes and weighs just over 50 kilos....
Both in the USA and in Europe, some models have gone much too far to meet the tough demands and have resorted to illegal diet products, emetics, diuretic pills and amphetamines to achieve the ‘ideal’ look of a pubescent boy. Their eating habits – or the lack of them – make them look like lollipops....
n the eighties, magazines were filled with shapely models such as Cindy Crawford. The ideal woman was healthy and strong, models glittered and glowed, and jogging, salad and mineral water was the dish of the day. But the nineties saw the fashion world do a U-turn. The ‘Luxury of Dirt’ became fashionable, and designers looked to crude drug environments for inspiration. The girls on the catwalk were no longer healthy and self-confident women, but skeleton-like figures with expressionless eyes and sloppy hair....
(A friend of mine calls it "heroin chic")

I missed this story when it happened, but here's another comment:
When the 22-year-old Uruguayan model Luisel Ramos died of a heart failure last month as she stepped off the catwalk at the Montevideo Fashion Week, she set off a raging debate in the fashion world about how far one could go. Apparently, the young woman had been subsisting on diet soda and leafy vegetables to conform to ramp standards..... Many Indian models survive on their chain-smoking habits to keep off hunger and kilos, often setting an example for young women across the country on how they should look. ... Model and actor Madhu Shalini spoke of the situation in the fashion industry saying: "Many models are made to believe that the skinnier you are, better and bigger offers will come your way. So there is a lot of pressure to be thin. I have seen many fellow models going to extremes to lose weight because they have been told to."

Here's a third, and after that I stop this subject for now:
Petra Nemcova has spent a large majority of her life struggling with her weight. From eating nothing but carrots and tomatoes to using laxatives, the well-known model says she has done anything and everything to stay a size zero. She recently discussed the trials of staying thin for her career with People, saying "I went through so many diets in my life. I've been very, very skinny. I've been a size zero but I'm naturally more curvy."....Actress Thandie Newton thinks "Some women are just naturally very slim. I don't think that fashion necessarily promotes a very skinny look anymore."

I'm not exactly sure what Thandie means by naturally slim. To me, taking laxatives and eating only vegetables like Petra is not "natural." It means starving oneself.

Please understand that I have only sympathy for people who have eating disorders of ANY kind. Eating disorders are a control issue, not a food issue. (I should know because I have one.) But someone who is starving themselves to look a certain way....this isn't coming out right, is it? Blagh.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Killer hamburger

The United States is schizophrenic. I just posted that article about way-too-thin models and here we have the polar opposite.
A restaurant in ... Arizona that proudly admits to trying to finish off its customers has introduced a new item on its menu -- the "quadruple bypass burger".
The burger at the "Heart Attack Grill" restaurant is stacked with four beef patties, cheese, onions, tomatoes and fried bacon, and weighs in at only 8,000 calories, more than three times what the human body needs in one day.
And that's the BURGER only...before the fries and the soda!
Patrons who have no appetite for the "quadruple bypass burger" can opt for the "triple" or "double-bypass".
Customers who have room for more can also order French fries "fried in pure lard" and can purchase cigarettes off the menu. As a courtesy, the restaurant offers its "best customers" a wheelchair service to their cars by waitresses dressed in slinky nurses' outfits.

What exactly is the point? The slinky nurse outfits make it sound like it's some kind of Hooters. The huge portions...well they just sound stupid (not unlike the new Burger King monstrosity with 2-4 patties. I've never seen anyone order even the 3 patty one. And it's slathered in crap too, adding more calories.) I just went to the Burger King website to find the name of it, but it's an all-flash site and I can't stand trying to navigate those.

way thin models (lots of pics)

I found this on Snopes. Yes, the pictures are digital, but they also provide the REAL photos, and really, they aren't much better. It goes right along with the starving model thing.
The amusing headline is "you think fat is ugly?"
I'm just going to use two of the pictures, ones that have before and after in the Snopes article.
The point is, even in the BEFORE pictures, the women are way too skinny. No one can look like that naturally. These women smoke and do drugs and starve themselves and they are held up as the ideal of beauty even though they are the MINORITY. It's ridiculous.
I am not advocating 300 lb models. But 200 lb models, with real curves, would be nice. I know lots of women who weigh 200 lbs and above who are gorgeous. But even "plus size" models are only around a size 14.
I hate how this blog handles multiple pictures, but you can see there really isn't much difference between the "before" and "after" (I won't insult your intelligence by labeling them.)

Monday, November 20, 2006

Model starves herself to death

This is so sad. I saw another story recently too, which I believe was also in Brazil, where a really pretty girl had died having illegal (not by a doctor) plastic surgery to make herself prettier.
Model dies of anorexia complications
The mother of a Brazilian fashion model who died from complications of anorexia has made an emotional appeal for parents to take better care of aspiring young models.
The death of Ana Carolina Reston, 21, follows growing criticism of the use of underweight models in the fashion world, an issue given new significance after the death in August of Uruguayan model Luisel Ramos of heart failure during a fashion show in Montevideo.
....Reston died...from a generalized infection caused by anorexia, an eating disorder in which sufferers obsessively deprive themselves of food in pursuit of an ultra-slim look. (I'm not sure that designation is entirely accurate, but I'll let it go.)
Reston weighed only 88 pounds and was about 5 feet 8 inches tall.
..."Dictatorship of skinny look kills a model," said the front-page headline...(near) a picture of the dark-haired, big-eyed girl in lingerie.
....In September, Spain caused a storm in the fashion world when Madrid barred models below a certain weight from its top fashion show. Models with a body-mass-index (BMI), which takes into account height and weight, of less than 18 were banned.
Reston's BMI was just 13.5 while the World Health Organization considers anyone with a BMI below 18.5 underweight. A BMI below 17.5 being one of the criteria for the diagnosis of anorexia nervosa and a BMI nearing 15 is usually used as an indicator for starvation.
Other famous fashion venues like London were considering following suit.
(photo source same as story)

Support for a friend

One of my "faithful" readers has started her own weight loss blog--Way to go JB!--and she's lined up to get her bariatric surgery in 2007. You can compare and contrast our stories.
She's parked herself at: My Big Fat Weight Loss Journey
Also see the link in the sidebar of my blog.

Friday, November 17, 2006

Spain pulls the plug on Burger King ad

I'm not sure exactly how this burger matches up with what they sell in the U.S. I know they have that new line of burgers, with 2, 3 and 4 patties (I found a coupon in a coupon book for buy one get one free on the one with 4 patties. I can barely eat a double whopper once I sop up the grease and throw away half the bun; what would I do with a 4 patty monstrosity? Much less TWO of them!).
Here's the story:
Spain Nixes Burger King Ad
Burger King should yank an ad campaign for its monster XXL burger - the caloric equivalent of eating 10 fried eggs - because it violates a Spanish initiative against obesity....(T)he commercials go against an agreement signed by the Spanish Federation of Hoteliers and Restaurateurs, of which Burger King is a member. Under the agreement, members of the federation said they would refrain from promoting huge servings of food....
An advertisement on Burger King's Spanish Web site features a photograph of the towering Double-Cheese Bacon XXL with the slogan: "It's awful being a vegetarian, right?"
That vegetarian line is pretty funny. And yes, that's the real ad, I got it from the Burger King website.

more on grandma

I see that I do indeed have to give some of the background material on my grandma, which was eaten by the blog yesterday.
When I was a fat teenager, her and my grandpa used to take me out to eat every couple of weeks, to their favorite restaurant, a little independent place whose name they horribly mis-pronounced no matter how many times I told them how to say it. Every time we went out, when the waitress came over, my grandmother would announce (and she ONLY speaks at full volume) that I had a "weight problem" and was only allowed "a child's portion" of food. The said child's portion was brought to me and then my grandmother hovered over me and watched me eat every bite and then would make me take half of it home. My grandfather would sit there and frown at her and say "leave the kid alone, willya?" (God, I miss my grandpa, and not just for that.)
Then there was the crying over cake incident recounted in the last entry, which had nothing to do with confusion. My grandma gets confused over dates (she forgot my wedding anniversary this year, insisting that "nothing happened that month ever" even though my grandpa's birthday is also in that month) and she won't leave her apartment, but other than that, she is VERY sharp.
There is the fact that she allows my overweight husband (who is on the edge between overweight and obese) to eat as much as he wants, offering him seconds and thirds and pressing leftovers on him while glaring at every bite I take. He tried to give me part of his dessert one night because it was something he didn't like, and I do, and she took it and threw it away. But when I give him the rest of my dinner (it's become increasingly difficult for me to eat in front of her over the years) that's okay.
So it is NOT her being confused or senile. She can be very spiteful (so can I--I inherited a lot from her whether I like it or not, and not just her hands, which she, my mother and I share) and mean, not just about food, but I won't go into those things here.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

grandma and the chocolate cake

Well I just spent about 20 minutes writing a long post about my grandmother and some chocolate cake. Then I needed to pause and do something else, so I saved it as a draft, and it vanished. This isn't the first time that's happened to me. It really pisses me off. I will re-write it but it loses something, you know? The humor, mostly.
Yup, I just tested it again-- I can't save things as drafts. That really sucks. I'll go back to writing in Word or WordPerfect, although it's a bitch to strip out the codes they add.
Anyway, back to my grandma. She's 90 and going blind. She lives in a little senior citizen huddle--a bunch of apartments with a central meeting place for them to hang out. She rarely leaves it--once a week to shop and go to church, that's it. (She used to go to church every day until she was diagnosed with the macular degeneration.) She will only visit others for major holidays (Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter). At all other times, everyone must come to her. She is like a queen bee.
So periodically everyone must go to Grandma's house and have dinner. Grandma doesn't cook. Grandma doesn't do dishes. Everything has to be pre-cooked and brought to her place. She supplies the paper plates and the dessert. For most of the year, the dessert is éclairs. I like éclairs, don't get me wrong, but it's nice to have something else too sometimes.
The day before our dinner, I was grocery shopping. I always check the dented can section, which is next to the yesterday's baked goods section. I was buying some dented cans of veggies and busted boxes of pasta when a lovely chocolate mousse cake caught my eye. It was marked down to $5 from $13.99 (usually baked goods are 50% off). I bought it.
I called my grandmother and told her not to buy éclairs because I had a lovely chocolate cake to bring. I made some kind of joke about not being able to eat it all myself. She got all upset and said "No, you mustn't." She actually said "mustn't."
At the end of the meal, I cut the cake into very small pieces. There ended up being 3 1/2 (small) pieces left over. I packed them up to take them home. My grandmother had her turned-down face on. "You're going to eat that cake." Well of course I am. It's yummy. And very, very rich. It really needed a side of ice cream or a big glass of milk with it. (You have to understand, leftover food all gets taken home by SOMEONE after one of these meals. But NEVER dessert. Leftover desserts go in grandma's tummy, always.) "Promise me you won't eat the cake all at once." I promised that I would only eat one piece a day. Evidently that was still too much because the turned-down face didn't go away. (It ended up taking me SIX days to finish--it was way too rich for breakfast.)
A few months ago, when I wasn't there, she told my mother that the last time she'd seen me, she had just "cried and cried" after I left...because I ate a piece of cake. This was cake that she purchased herself and served to me. I was so angry when my mother told me that. What kind of screwed-up family do I come from? You feed me and then cry because I eat? When I was thin all they did was harp on how I was going to get fat again, until I did, and then they were smug and satisfied at being right.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Chocolate. Yummy AND healthy.

Finally, a happy study, not a fear-filled one.
(C)hocolate lovers who flunked out of a Johns Hopkins University study on aspirin and heart disease helped researchers stumble on an explanation of why a little chocolate a day can cut the risk of heart attack. ...The blood of the chocolate eaters was slower to clot than the blood of the volunteers who resisted chocolate, Becker told a meeting of heart experts in Chicago. In a urine test, the chocolate lovers had lower levels of a platelet waste product called thromboxane. Does it help a little bit? Yes,...But it does not have anywhere near the magnitude of the effects of a single baby aspirin a day.....Other studies have suggested that dark chocolate contains more of the beneficial compounds linked with heart health.
Photo source: Wikipedia

should fat people pay more for insurance?

I think this is a slippery slope. LINK What about people with chronic disease like diabetes? Shouldn't they pay more too? And if the insurance company is going to charge me more for being fat, are they going to start paying for prescription diet pills, gym memberships and bariatric surgery?
Most Americans believe smokers and obese people should pay more for health insurance, but they have mixed views on how to help the millions without any health insurance, according to a survey published on Tuesday.
The poll of about 1,500 people found that that about 80 percent believe the U.S. health insurance system, with 46.6 million uninsured, needs fixing.
Sixty percent of those polled favored higher premiums for smokers while 30 percent felt the obese should pay more.

The US population, as trumpeted a few weeks ago, is 300 MILLION people. 300 MILLION. They polled 1500 and determined what MOST Americans think? That's .0005% of the population as the total sampling size. That's a bullshit statistic right there. There's no majority in that. So 30% of .0005% is nothing. Not "the majority". God I hate the spin the media puts on everything. FEAR FEAR FEAR.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

fat man's post-mortum revenge

This is fascinating in a sick way: fire at crematorium
Fire officials said the six-hundred pound man was in being cremated when his body fluids were too much for the oven. The body fluids seeped out onto the floor and ignited, causing a fire at the ...Funeral Home...."Those fluids can be very flammable," said (a firefighter). "Sort of like a grease fire."
SORT of? It IS a grease fire.
The crematorium is back in business and the funeral director said they'll notify the family to assure them their loved one wasn't harmed.
NOT HARMED? He was burned to a crisp. That's the point of cremation.
Sometimes I do hate the political correctness of our society, when it feels it's necessary to say/do stupid shit like saying someone wasn't harmed while being cremated.
I've had all my pets cremated because if I move and they are buried in the yard, I'd have to leave them behind. I try not to think about it during those few days between when the vet has their body sent out and I get back the tin. It's so awful. But so is rotting.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

"fat actress" in a bikini

I have mixed feelings about this. Kirstie Alley lost 75 pounds and wore a bikini in front of Oprah.
I mean, it's great that she lost weight and quit smoking and feels good about herself. But she had been an advocate for the overweight, and now she's a spokesperson for Jenny Craig and pimping "thin."
I think she looked beautiful, like a voluptuous goddess, in the gown. She looks good in the bikini too, of course (BMI 22). But she wasn't ugly/unattractive when she weighed 220 (BMI 33, which is barely obese and doesn't qualify for bariatric surgery, which starts at 35-40 BMI)
If I woke up tomorrow thin, I wouldn't start hating and reviling fat people. (Not that she's done that.) If I woke up thin tomorrow because of a miracle diet pill, I might hawk it (if they paid me), but not to LOOK good. To feel good.

Image Source/Bikini
Image Source/Fat (but this pic's everywhere)

Monday, November 06, 2006


I added a cool icon to my bar on the right (in the NaNo section) for my progress in NaNo. I'm doing great-almost half way there in 5 days. It looks like this:

I haven't seen any interesting fat news to blog, and since basically I only go to work and stay home and write, my life's not too interesting these days. Best bet is for you to subscribe to my RSS feed and then you'll know pretty much instantly (within about 30 minutes) when I post. Click the orange thingie.

You can also subscribe to my NaNo blog. My novel is about a fat woman (what else) so the excerpts might be of interest to you.

(This writing blog will go away in December and return next October.)

But please don't abandon me just because I'm quieter for a few weeks! I'll be back, sassier than ever, in a few weeks if not sooner.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

drink wine, be fat, stay healthy

I don't like wine, so this isn't going to help me.
Fat, boozing mice stay healthy
Huge amounts of a red wine extract seemed to help obese mice eat a high-fat diet and still live a long and healthy life, suggests a new study that some experts are calling "landmark" research.
The big question is, can it work the same magic in humans?
Scientists say it's far too early to start swilling barrels of red wine. But they are calling the latest research promising and even "spectacular."
The study ...shows that heavy doses of red wine extract lowers the rate of diabetes, liver problems and other fat-related ill effects in obese mice.
Fat-related deaths dropped 31 percent for obese mice on the supplement, compared to untreated obese mice, and the treated mice also lived long after they should have.
(T)he organs of the fat mice that got the wine extract looked normal when they shouldn't have.... Other preliminary work still being done in the lab shows the wine ingredient has promise in lengthening the life span of normal-sized mice, too.
I really, really hate the taste of wine. It's like dead rotten grapes. Maybe, if it's just an extract, they can make it in pill form. Yeah. I could deal with red wine pills. I don't much like being drunk either.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

edema leg

I just went shoe-shopping. The female part of me gets all excited. Pretty shoes. Fun socks. Matching purse. Matching wallet.
The fat side of me gets all depressed. No high heels. No pointy toes. No socks.
I got a pair of rather ugly, clunky, square-toed slip-on low-heeled skid-resistant shoes to wear to work. They fit, they don't pinch, they do the job.
I decided, since it's buy one get one half off that I'll get a pair of snow boots. I haven't owned a pair of snow boots in years. I wear my combo sneaker/hiking boots for snow (and they are low tops so in deep snow they suck).
I found a nice pair, low heel, with a side zipper AND a lace-up front, that came to mid-calf.
Even with the laces completely undone, I couldn't zip the calf on my edema leg. I almost started crying right there in Payless. I just want a pair of boots so I can go outside in deep snow. Is that so much to ask?

Happy Halloween

I changed my Yahoo Avatar for Halloween. If you look at it on my Yahoo 360 page, the lightning flashes and the ghost hovers and moves.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

That template didn't last

It had crosses all down the right side. Upside down ones. I'm not a Satanist or a Christian so I zapped that template. It was called ThisawayRose. Nice name, bad execution.

Switched to Blogger Beta

I don't know why I resisted for so long. I think it was the finality of it--you cannot switch back. I was worried I'd lose information, or how to edit the template. Instead the template editing is practically idiot-proof and I was able to transfer all my information in about ten minutes. Very cool. And the name of this template is something Rose--come away rose or something. It is VERY pink, isn't it? But I didn't want to have to go back and change all the posts with pink lettering (which showed up well against the old dark green background). Plus I can use post labels.
You know I want to go back and put post labels on all my 500+ existing posts. NO TIME! NaNoWriMo looms on the horizon.
And cool, this version of blogger underlines misspellings in red. I like it! I wish I'd done it sooner!

Friday, October 27, 2006

Fat drivers consume more gas?

Fat drivers consume more gas: report - Oct. 26, 2006

I think I like the "blog this" button on the Google toolbar for Firefox. I switched to Firefox recently. You should too. I was always a Netscape girl, always hated IE, and now I'm a Firefox girl. Fickle, fickle am I.
Anyway, I think this report is some kind of bullshit propaganda, OR they didn't take everything in account--the same thing that makes people fat may also make them use more gas, for instance. That fat virus. I don't know. I'm not a scientist or a researcher, just a fat woman with lots of opinions.
Anyway, this is what the article says:

The widening waistlines of Americans have increased the consumption of gasoline since 1960....Americans now pump 938 million gallons of fuel more on a yearly basis than they were in 1960 because of their increasing weight.

You can click the link and read the rest for yourself, but it doesn't say much more than that. I bet the person who did the study is thin and thinks fat people have no willpower and are lazy.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Fast food quiz

I found this on another blog. You're supposed to pick the healthier choice.

1. Dunkin' Donuts Croissant sandwich with sausage, egg, and cheese OR Dunkin' Donuts English muffin with ham, egg, and cheese

2. McDonald's Triple Thick Shake (16 oz.) OR Wendy's Frosty (16 oz.)

3. KFC Original Recipe Chicken Sandwich OR Boston Market Chicken Carver Sandwich

4. Burger King Whopper OR Arby's Super Roast Beef Sandwich

5. Starbucks Cinnamon Chip Scone OR Panera Chocolate Chip Muffin

I'm going to make my guesses before I read the results. For all I know this is one of those quizzes where the logical answer is wrong, but here goes:
I say the healthier choices are:
1. The English Muffin because ham is less fatty than sausage and an English Muffin is baked while a croissant is fried (I think--or it's got a lot of butter, either way I know they have a lot of fat)
2. I'm guessing the shake, but they are probably close.
3. Boston Market sandwich which is broiled (or whatever its called when they're on the rotating rack) while KFC is fried.
4. Probably the roast beef...but I would get them both plain, and a lot of the calories are in the crappy toppings.
5. How big are they? I don't eat at either place. I'm guessing the muffin, but if it's huge and the scone is small...I have no clue.

Here are the real answers:
1. Croissant sandwich has 650 calories, 39 g carb, 45 g fat; English muffin has 310 calories, 34 g carb, 10 g fat ROSIE IS CORRECT.
2. McDonald's shake has 580 calories, 94 g carb, 17 g fat; Wendy's shake has 435 calories, 73 g carb, 11 g fat ROSIE IS WRONG
3. The KFC sandwich has 445 calories, 27 g carb, 27 g fat; the Boston market sandwich has 670 calories, 68 g carb, 33 g fat ROSIE IS WRONG
4. The Whopper has 700 calories, 42 g carb, 52 g fat; the Super Roast Beef sandwich has 440 calories, 19 g carb, 48 g fat ROSIE IS CORRECT
5. The scone has 515 calories, 71 g carb, 23 g fat; the muffin has 240 calories, 36 g carb, 10 g fat

So I suck at this. 3/5. Well, I'm fat, what the hell did you expect? If I knew how to eat properly would I look like a caricature of myself?

bad arm day

You know how some people have bad hair days? I'm having a bad arm day.
I just DON'T like my arms lately. I work on them, and I think that makes me dislike them more. I know they are doing the best they can. But they are UGLY. I know I'm supposed to love my body as it is and blah blah blah, but damn, if I saw my arms on someone else I'd be grossed out. If I flex I can feel my biceps in there, all nice and hard, although the shape of my arm doesn't change much. My triceps are so buried in my flappy fat bat wings they might as well not even be there. Strong? Yes. Sleek? Not by a long shot.
Every time I move my arm, I feel my floppy bat wings trembling. I feel like I should be hidden in a damn burka. Just hide it all. Fuck it. Not that I'd want to be a muslim, just that it must be great some days not to worry about what the hell you look like.
And I'm having a bad hair day on top of this. My hair is just awful. I deep conditioned it last night so it's soft and combed out and snarl-free. It's getting long so I thought I'd wear it down for once. Instead I look like Jesus (but not with brown hair). Not a good look for me. If you see a big fat woman with enormous floppy arms and Jesus hair in Connecticut, that would be me. I need a hair cut. I need an arm lift (Brachioplasty). My NaNo plotting isn't going well either. I guess I'll log onto that blog and whine over there.
Some days it just doesn't pay to gnaw through the restraints.

Friday, October 20, 2006

small seat, big ass & slightly off-topic concert musings

I went to see Godsmack at Mohegan Sun last night. I went to a concert there a few years ago and hated it. The seats were so small I couldn't cram my butt into them. I know my butt is big, but usually I fit into a goddamn chair. At the other concert, someone puked near me and I used that as an excuse not to sit in my seat--they let me stand up in the back of the section and watch the show from there.
I said to myself, "I hate Mohegan Sun's seats. But I love Godsmack. What to do?"
And I went. I 've lost weight (probably about 40 lbs) and I've streamlined my lower body a lot by adding muscle (so I've probably lost more than 40 lbs of fat, replacing it with muscle which weighs more but takes up 2 1/2 x less space). My thought: I'll have no problem sitting.
I got there, lowered myself into my most excellent seat beside the stage (thank you Friends of Jimmy) and my butt didn't slide easily into the chair. I was able to compress it, and it didn't cause me actual pain like last time, but squeezing by the arms was uncomfortable. I had to lever myself in and out with my arms. Once I was in the chair, I was okay, except that my knees were pressed against the seat-back in front of me. Most people didn't have that going on. My legs are long for my height, but not that long. I think my butt is so big that it pushed my whole body forward in the chair. It was just NOT pleasant.
Idiots in the balcony kept pouring beer on us and I got hit in the head by an almost-full beer. Gross. I hate beer. I hate having beer soaking me. Especially while my ass is shoe-horned into a child-sized seat.
The show was great. They opened with AC/DC's "For Those About to Rock (We Salute You") played against a video of previous Godsmack concerts. I was already hoarse by the end of that and Godsmack hadn't even started yet. It made me want to go so bad to an AC/DC concert. It's been at least 10 years since they came to CT--the Ballbreaker tour--1995. On the next tour (Stiff Upper Lip), they went to the Boston area and it was like a Tuesday or something so I couldn't go. They played a small show in NYC when they got into the Hall of Fame a few years ago and now they've been silent. Supposedly Brian Johnson is doing opera in Florida. I miss those shows--they were a staple part of my adolescence, and of course where I got my "Whole Lotta Rosie" nick-name. (And can you believe Wikipedia has a whole article on that song?)

Thursday, October 19, 2006

fat=stupid. It's official.

I know my depression hurts me mentally more than my weight--could that be the connection? I have depressed thin friends and they feel stupid because of it. This should be investigated more, I think.

Adding to the litany of health problems linked to obesity, the results of a five-year study suggest that a high body mass index may impair cognitive abilities in middle-aged adults.....Cross-sectionally, a higher BMI was associated with lower cognitive scores after adjustment for age, sex, educational level, blood pressure, diabetes, and other psychosocial co-variables....Obesity is a marker or proxy for diabetes and hypertension, which have been repeatedly shown to be associated with cognitive decline in middle age and elderly.....The findings were echoed by another study published in the same journal, which showed physical fitness is associated with the preservation of cognitive function over time.

I'm trying to be in my power, as suggested by my new-age healing session (no, she wasn't a Scientologist--they "heal" by pointing only), and not feel like or act like or think like a victim. I do things, things are not done to me. A study cannot make me feel stupid. I choose to feel stupid. And I don't choose to feel stupid. So there.

obesity documentary looking for real people

I know nothing more about this than what's on this site. Supposedly a film is being made to "out" all the deceptive weight-loss practices, diet aids, books, etc and they are looking for real people willing to name names and be on film. If you're interested, go to the link, not to me.

bariatric butt surgery

I can't make this stuff up. They are saying that new bariatric surgeries (in about 10 years) will have no incision. They will be done through the butt or mouth and be very different from what we have now.
Up the butt versus no scar. If I can get my colon cleansed by a tube up the butt, what's the big deal?

Stomach-stapling surgery to combat obesity may be done in the future with a tube inserted through the mouth, making the procedure safer than using an incision and opening the way for more people to undergo it, doctors say. ....Doing the surgery without incisions will make it a lower-risk, lower-cost proposition and may be applicable to patients who are less obese than those who are currently considered for surgery.... Natural orifice transendoscopic surgery, or NOTE, requires no incisions because instruments -- like long tubes with robotic arms and staple guns -- can be inserted through the mouth and snaked down the esophagus. Another inserting a sleeve, or a tube, into the intestines that would interfere with calorie absorption. Those are about five to 10 years away....If the work to be done involves the lower portion of the intestines, instruments can be inserted through the rectum. Using a natural orifice, like the mouth or the rectum,... would drive down costs even more because the procedure could be done without anesthesia, which would also make it less risky.
WITHOUT anesthesia!? You're going to stick "robotic arms" up my butt or down my throat while I am AWAKE? No way. Knock me out, please. A little tube of warm water is one thing. A robot is another thing entirely.
Low cost, less recovery time, sleeving the intestines rather than chopping them up--all sound good. Robotic arms down my throat and up my butt?

too fat to be killed?

Now I've heard everything.
Cult leader says he's too obese for execution
A federal judge on Tuesday delayed next week's execution of cult leader Jeffrey Lundgren to allow him to join a lawsuit by five other death row inmates challenging the state's use of lethal injection.
In his request to join the lawsuit, Lundgren, 56, said he is at even greater risk of experiencing pain and suffering during the procedure than other inmates because he is overweight and diabetic.
....Lundgren's sentence stems from a conviction for the fatal shooting of a family of five in 1989. The family, which included three children, were killed while they stood in a pit....
Lundgren formed a cult after he was dismissed in 1987 as a lay minister....He said passages in the Bible told him to kill the family. Several witnesses said the family was not as enthusiastic about the cult as Lundgren would have liked.
O....kay.....It's all right to stand a family IN A HOLE and SHOOT them but not to stick a needle in a fat guy? What the hell is wrong with our country?
And yes, it's hard to find my veins--even when I was thin (it's genetic--my grandma's not overweight and she has problem veins too). If I was on death row I wouldn't be whining about it though.
This could easily go off topic so I am stopping now.